14/10/2008 Back from vacation(Bali)

Thanks for all my friends' concern and being supportive.

After coming back from Bali, the first thing to do is to go back hospital for my blood test report.

This morning, I went for DSH again to take my blood test report. Doctor said the blood test report is for the purpose of examine whether I was pregnant outside of uterus. I was NOT !!!

I was in dilemma when doctor ask me when I was free to do an operation! Is an one day operation. Doctor said even I have done this operation, it will not be cure thoroughly. 

However, it has no harm if i do not do the operation according to doctor. But if I were to plan to marry and get pregnant soon, doctor suggest me to do the operation , because it may reduce my chances of getting pregnant. 

Finally , he left 3 choices for me: 1. do the scope (operation) 2. do nothing and take painkiller during period time/pain. 3. take medicine.

Haih.... decision making time.

At this moment, I choose the combination of 1. and 2.                                                                            I will do the operation but not now.                                                                                                             But another question to myself is : If not now, then when? before marry?

Anyway, I may try using natural aromatherapy treatment first.

                                                         

7/10/08 gynecologic check up

晕倒了两次，终于决定拿假去老板娘介绍的医院检查。(DAMAI SERVICE HOSPITAL)

在家里等待去检验的心情是那么的忐忑不安。想检查又害怕知道结果，不检查又想知道结果。人总是这么矛盾。

当场医生做检验就可照出结果，我自己也看到荧幕上的一个阴影。它叫作ENDOMETRIOSIS(子宫内膜异位)。这是初期医生判断的结果。

俗语说得好: 人因无知而恐惧。当你不知道那是什么时，心理就会产生一种恐惧感。

医生说那是因为倒经而引起的。他也没有开药给我，只是给了我一张关于endometriosis的文章给我回去。

凌走前，护士抽了血，吩咐我后天再来看报告。

我就这样带着复杂的心情离开。