感恩的心

我来自偶然　像一颗尘土
有谁看出我的脆弱
我来自何方　我情归何处
谁在下一刻呼唤我

天地虽宽　这条路却难走
我看遍这人间坎坷辛苦
我还有多少爱　我还有多少泪
要苍天知道　我不认输

感恩的心，感谢有你
伴我一生， 让我有勇气作我自己
感恩的心　感谢命运
花开花落　我一样会珍惜
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一颗感恩的心会让我们看开很多的事情。
我感恩老天赐我一个伟大的妈妈，
虽然是一个负债累累的家，我依然感恩老天，
因为它让我比别人更有成长的空间 。
‘人是环境的孩子’
我变了， 变得越来越坚强。
也许只有老天看到出我的脆弱。

当贫穷时，感谢老天锻练我们学习赚钱的能力。
当病痛时，是老天要我们学习抗胜病症的时候。
当分手时，感谢老天给我们更多选择伴侣的机会
当许多不如意的事时，感谢老天告诉我‘人生是不会一直平凡无奇’，
它要我知道人生要过得多姿多彩。

只要一颗感恩的心，再大的困难，我们一样看得开。

资璇(Susan)共勉之

How would my Christmas would be?

Moody day.... Suddenly feel like dropping something in my blog. Christmas is coming soon , how you guys going to celebrate christmas?

There is budget hotel, budget airline, I would have a budget Christmas this year. How to celebrate a 'Economic Christmas' ? Actually i hope to give 'someone' surprise during christmas this year but now ... I don't expect much for christmas this year.. Company hold my salary for almost 2 months already. 

It is going to be a budgeted christmas, although i would be celebrating in Singapore.

I told myself, to be happy is enough.

So, Merry Christmas !!!

14/10/2008 Back from vacation(Bali)

Thanks for all my friends' concern and being supportive.

After coming back from Bali, the first thing to do is to go back hospital for my blood test report.

This morning, I went for DSH again to take my blood test report. Doctor said the blood test report is for the purpose of examine whether I was pregnant outside of uterus. I was NOT !!!

I was in dilemma when doctor ask me when I was free to do an operation! Is an one day operation. Doctor said even I have done this operation, it will not be cure thoroughly. 

However, it has no harm if i do not do the operation according to doctor. But if I were to plan to marry and get pregnant soon, doctor suggest me to do the operation , because it may reduce my chances of getting pregnant. 

Finally , he left 3 choices for me: 1. do the scope (operation) 2. do nothing and take painkiller during period time/pain. 3. take medicine.

Haih.... decision making time.

At this moment, I choose the combination of 1. and 2.                                                                            I will do the operation but not now.                                                                                                             But another question to myself is : If not now, then when? before marry?

Anyway, I may try using natural aromatherapy treatment first.

                                                         

7/10/08 gynecologic check up

晕倒了两次，终于决定拿假去老板娘介绍的医院检查。(DAMAI SERVICE HOSPITAL)

在家里等待去检验的心情是那么的忐忑不安。想检查又害怕知道结果，不检查又想知道结果。人总是这么矛盾。

当场医生做检验就可照出结果，我自己也看到荧幕上的一个阴影。它叫作ENDOMETRIOSIS(子宫内膜异位)。这是初期医生判断的结果。

俗语说得好: 人因无知而恐惧。当你不知道那是什么时，心理就会产生一种恐惧感。

医生说那是因为倒经而引起的。他也没有开药给我，只是给了我一张关于endometriosis的文章给我回去。

凌走前，护士抽了血，吩咐我后天再来看报告。

我就这样带着复杂的心情离开。